This entry is in memory of my dear friend Tony Sanders, teacher of writing and exciting, difficult poet, whom I was speaking with on the phone about snow storms and friendly neighbors a couple of weeks ago and who died, I discovered just now, a couple of days ago.
Here is a passage from a prose poem called “No Can Don’t,” in his book Subject Matters: Prose Poems. You can find all his books on Amazon.com.
“…The older you get, the older you get. The irregular skyline, like a well-worn house key, says so. You are now the river, then the riverbed, then the river again with some remorse, since you never get used to opportunity, like a half-day of work or happenstance happening on a park bench known for drama, though you leave without so much as a faint ‘hello’ or the tip of a cap as you try to sort out the significance the line-breaks and syntax of your thoughts, while avoiding your fear of saying what was already obvious in the fingle-fangle of the moment the hero in the novel seizes upon. There would always be excuses and Acts of God you could Google like history or ask the Psychic, who saw your time was up and your wallet out.”
Back when we taught together and shared an office we would occasionally read our students’ astonishing or hilarious errors to one another. On the phone we would discuss politics, romance, favorite bands, bad jokes, late-night Law & Order reruns. On the phone he sometimes read me new poems. I remember when he read me this one.
The word’s the thing, my dear friends, and people who use it well are precious for that. And for many other things.
February 17th, 2015 at 2:30 am
I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend and colleague.
February 17th, 2015 at 10:52 am
Thank you, Bethie.
February 17th, 2015 at 5:21 pm
So sorry for your loss. Kindred sprits are difficult to find.
February 17th, 2015 at 5:39 pm
So true. Thanks, Susan P.
February 18th, 2015 at 2:01 am
sorry for the loss, but glad you have fond memories you have together. Lets make everyday count before its too late
February 18th, 2015 at 10:23 am
A good philosophy.
February 18th, 2015 at 9:52 pm
I’m so sorry for your loss. His poem is so beautiful.
February 18th, 2015 at 10:45 pm
Thank you. He had a brilliant sense of imagery. Even when I couldn’t exactly put my finger on what he was saying, I could always SEE what he was saying, and respond to those images in a deep way. Poetry doesn’t necessarily translate word for word into ordinary speech: as long as its specifics stir you, you will eventually find its clarity. I’m so glad you like the passage I chose.
February 18th, 2015 at 11:02 pm
Sadly, such a voice quieted. Sorry. What else is there to say, except his words survive – and thoughts live when read, small consolation, but something. Nothing replaces a good friend. May peace find you
February 25th, 2015 at 9:42 pm
Thank you, dear phil.
February 25th, 2015 at 8:47 pm
Just checkin in. Does all this snow mean school will be out much much later than usual? Hope you are snuggly wrapped in front of a fire with a nice book.
February 25th, 2015 at 9:44 pm
They want to convert March 26 from a Thursday into a Wednesday to make up for some of our lost classroom time. But I don’t NEED it a month from now! I do have a wonderful book, the latest Bryant & May mystery. I love them! And how are things where you are? I hear there’s a cold snap down there?
February 26th, 2015 at 12:44 pm
This has been one of those cold wet winters. This close to the coast /right by the lake we’ve escaped icing/sleet although some snow flakes have been spotted. The palms have only been wrapped for one extreme week…knock on wood. Little sun, lots of fog. Sun was out about 2 hrs this morning but another front has ended that. Lows in 30’s – highs around 50…except between fronts when we hit 70-80 for 24 hrs…like Sunday…which means rain as it warms. Not sure there’s a dry pair of shoes in the house. Enjoy the book! As a kid, a whole day to stay home and read because school was called was the best day ever.
March 3rd, 2015 at 8:49 pm
Oh, yes, snow days. The wonder of a day for which NOTHING has been planned and Mother Nature has simply said “stop.”
March 3rd, 2015 at 5:14 pm
Tossing, turning, restless sleep, I woke
Grey damp sky overhead grey pavement under my feet
I walked diffidently through an urban city when
I glanced into a store window and became entranced
Tweed jackets and wool skirts worn by faces aglow with life
And books beyond number! They were discussing a book here
A page there. What stories they grappled with. What words and expressions that describe a universe of life!
And I, outside, seemingly self imprisoned from the outside, felt a stirring
Something inviting. I wanted that. Then, startled by the twinkle in the eyes of the keeper. And peering in the window at all the wonder, all the life,
I woke.
Greetings Professor.
March 3rd, 2015 at 8:48 pm
Oh, very nice, especially the twinkle in the eyes. Thank you.
March 7th, 2015 at 4:44 pm
I am late in offering condolences, but I am sorry that you lost such a one.
March 7th, 2015 at 6:05 pm
Thank you. He was one of a kind, and he’s left a hole…